Hello everyone as I hope you guys are having a good one with the new year coming up. The year has been difficult for many people and overall, it's definitely been a mixed bag. Like the title mentioned, by New Years I will be leaving the website and become more active on platforms that I have been neglecting on (like Instagram) or have recently created an account for (ArtStation)
I know in the past I said I was leaving and stopped using it for a week before coming back, which that's my fault. I thought I would gain the passion I used to have for the website by staying here but realized that it's gone the longer I stay on.
In my recent image (which has information relating towards my feelings on my art and Devianart):
It has a lot of context on how I feel about my art over the current year and my disappointment I have over it. The year generally was an better than average for me, but my artwork did not improve a lot like I would had liked it to have. January, October and December were the ones I have produced the most of and I believe were the best quality (though most of September through December works are in my computer stash will be posted in 2021. )
I used to be extremely active in this website and posted so much fanart that I have enjoyed. Over the years, even if I do like drawing fanart still, I feel like I wasted a lot of time and could had focused on producing content within my own projects. I still struggle with producing my own ideas because of my insecurities and I have to focus on getting the bigger picture of art in order to make it. If not, I can't force myself to produce content that I put a lot of love into or else I will have a harder time looking for improvement in order to draw.
In general, I feel bad and disappointed on myself for not producing on what I would had like to drawn along with becoming super inactive with the website and the audience who watch me for my work. I am sorry for being able to produce the good fanart anymore and can not force myself to do it anymore.
I have to work on the struggles that I have been dealing with in my art and should just aim on what I need to do instead of want. I also need to force myself to be more socially active within websites in order to provide on what I have to do.
Regardless with all the negatively here, I still want to thank everyone who has stayed loyal and strong with my artwork. For the people who watches me, the people who favorite my work and those who do leave comments on them too. Without you guys, there would had been no way I would have gotten the views I got on my main page nor the motivation for me to keep on going with my work. I apologize towards the new watchers who wanted to see more of particular fanarts, like the Sonic/Dangan Ronpa series that I just failed to keep on, the Puyo watchers, Dangan Ronpa watchers, Codename Kids Next Door watchers and the Total Drama fans who really like my TD stuff. Along with my apologizes towards the older watchers who I have became inactive in talking too or inactive with putting art that I used to post a lot of (like Total Drama, Bob Burgers, Harvey Beaks, Assassination Classroom and Danganronpa (still like the series; just can not come up with anything good for them) Along with the watchers who were active with my ocs in the groups I used devote my time into (lost the motivation and passion for RPing now and feel like I did the characters injustice)
I am going way too deep with this type of stuff and understand if people see this as over reacting towards a pointless situation by the end of the day. But I just wanna confess to everything I have been holding back over the years and just need to spill my honest thoughts here.
I will still continue to use Stash to post my artwork in there for storage files but otherwise, I will not post anymore art. I will also commit to this too by putting a new cover image saying that the account is permanently inactive.
This will be officially my last journal that I would be writing within the website and thank you all once again for reading this. Have a good one and take care of yourself for the future we as people have to aim for.
So a while back, I remember giving out a poll in January that mentioned on what would you guys would like to learn more about my DA page. And from the ones that did took their time taking a poll mentioned about wanting to learn about me as a person and the playlists of the songs that I listen to.
So feel free to leave a comment down below about anything you guys have want to ask me and I will do my best to answer them. As I'll make sure to answer any questions that you guys want.
With the playlist request, I have been listening to a bunch of them in the course of six years and have been reogranzing them when I have the chance too. Feel free to hop around
with the links provided below of the music that I listen too:
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLA85CF1BB2E2B6AED
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL4D3D7BF6BF5CA6C3
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL036AA57588056393
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLDB2C01E99DEE6870
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL5A16A810C0364711
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLCh3g3spycTe7YkTSJVOTk4dzGiD7txkY
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL2CFA878761D082CB
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLCh3g3spycTfk-COUPgqtwO_GfDDHGmva